13 AUGUST 2024:
WORKING WITH POORNIMA AND CHAITHRA MAM.
ANANYA IS NICE SHE REACHES ON TIME.
I LEARNT NST, IV FLUID, BLOOD DRAW
NEED TO STUDY AGAIN ALL THE INVESTIGATIONS, WHICH COLOR IS WHAT.
STUDY WHAT EVER YOU SAW TODAY:
-NST
-COLOR OF TUBES
-WHICH DISEASES WHAT AND ALL INVESTIGATION IN MY PHONE.
-NEED TO LEARN KANNADA.
-MY RESEARCH ON CROSSBREEDING MILLIONS OF YEARS AGO CREATING UNIQUE CREATURES IN A
MUCH FASTER WAY BUT IT IS BEING LIMITED, ONCE HUMAN TRIED TO FUCK A MONKEY….i.e
LITERALLY CROSSBREEDING, AN ERUPTION OF HIV VIRUS OCCURRED, WHICH IS A PURE BIOLOGICAL
WAY FOR ERADICATING A SPECIES WHICH RARELY HAS HARDLY ANY IMMUNITY TO IT, AS THOUGH, IT
FELT LIKE SOMEONE TRIED TO KILL US [Link] WAS ONCE DONE YEARS AGO BUT THIS IS PURELY
HYPOTHETICAL AND HAS NO TRUTH TO ANYTHING, IT IS JUST WHAT I THOUGHT, I MADE UP SOME
MUMBO JUMBO, BUT REALLY HAS A FEELING THAT THIS IS THE ULTIMATE TRUTH.I HOPE SO. I WISH
SOMEONE REALLY TALKED TO BE, BUT MY MIND DOESNT TALK TO ME, I TRIED THAT THE LAST TIME
AND IT ENDED UP VERY BADLY, YOU KNOW WHEN I TRIED TO LET GO MY BRAIN, AND IT JUST WENT
NUTS…BUT I FEEL LIKE I HAVE GAINED SOME AMOUT OF CONTROL TO IT. GOOD JOB ARJUN SANKAR.
IS THIS REALLY MY FREE BRAIN GIVING ME INSTRUCTIONS, IF SO I CAN LITERALLY BE WHOEEVER I
WANT, I THINK THAT IS WHAT I USED TO DO, I ACTUALLY WAS NEVER THIS ANXIOUS ABOUT
ANYTHING, AND I USED TO BE AN EXELLENT STUDENT BACK THEN, IT JUST LIKE A SWITCH OFF
DURING CORONA, OR WAS IT BECAUSE I SHIFTED TO ROOM NUMBER 104, AND BLAMING IT ON
POOR CORONA.
EVEN THOUGH I HAVE FELT LIKE I HAVE IMPROVED A LOT, I AM STILL LACKING SOMETHING FROM MY
PAST DAYS OF GLORY. MAYBE THE MOMENT I STARTED NOTICING MY SHITTY VOICE, AND MAYBE
THAT IS WHY AGAJA IS VERY SILENT, SHE THINKS SHE IS VERY BORING AND CONTROLS HERSELF JUST
LIKE ME THINKING PEOPLE WILL THINK SHIT OF US IF WE OPENED OUR MOUTHS DUE TO OUR PAST
TRAUMAS.
WHAT SHOULD I DO? I NEED TO WORK ON MY VOICE…SOMEHOW…AND NEED TO HELP AGAJA
IMPROVE HER ENGLISH SPEAKING SKILLS BECAUSE IT IS NOT LIKE SHE IS NOT SMART, SHE IS VERY
SMART AND I KNOW FOR SURE SHE IS LIKE CRAZY SMART IN A LOT OF THINKS, SHE IS JUST NOT
CONFIDENT, JUST LIKE ME.
WE WERE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER, TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER AND IMPROVE BECAUSE IF THIS
KEEPS ON GOING LIKE THIS ME AND AGAJA WILL END UP IN A LOT OF TROUBLE.
BUT I DON’T KNOW, THAT MOFO OF A DOCTOR TOLD ME IT CAN NEVER BE TREATED, LET US SEE.
ILL TRY TO IMPROVE MY VOICE, AT LEAST BY SURGERY AT LEAST, I DON’T CARE I AM READY TO SPEND
HOW MUCH EVER MONEY POSSIBLE IF MEANS I WILL GET A GOOD VOICE, I WANT TO BE
DOMINATING. SERIOUS IF I HAD A LITTLE BIT OF LOOK, I COUKD HAVE EASILY PULLED A LOT OF
BITCHES, BUT THE THING IS IF ME AND AGAJA ARE TOGETHER, THERE HAS TO BE SOME AMOUT OF
FATE TO IT, OUT OF 7 BILLION PEOPLE, GOD MADE ME CHOOSE AGAJA, MAYBE NOT BY PURE SEXUAL
ATTRACTION, BUT WHATEVER IT IS, IT HAPPENED SO IT MAY SEEM LIKE IT IS RANDOM IN MY
DIMENSION, BUT MAYBE IT IS A COMPLICATED MOVE PLAYED BY AN UPPER DIMENSIONAL BEING
ITSELF, MAYBE EVERYONE A THERE OWN GOD, WHO ARE WRITING THEIR FATE…….SHIT I GOT
DIVERTED, BUT POSSIBLY FATE THAT WILL BE WRITTEN IN THE UPCOMING MILLENIA.
IT CAN BE ANYTHING, MAYBE OUR KIDS WILL BE SOMETHING OF A FAMOUS PERSON HIMSELF, AND I
MEAN NOT LIKE CELEBRITY TYPE OF FAMOUS, LIKE WORLD FAMOUS LIKE HITLER, CRISTOPHER
COLOMBUS, ALEXANDER THE GREAT………………OR BY THE JESUS HIMSELF, OR ALLAH, OR MAYBE GOD
ITSELF .
- SIGH!NEED TO CALM MYSLEF AND DON’T INSERT ANY THOUGHT S WHILE FORMING ANY
SENTENCES. WHICH CAN FUCK UP THE CONCLUSION OF MY PREVIOUS THOUGHT. GOOD
I FEEL LIKE THE MUSIC IS REALLY HELPING ME WHENEVER I START TO CONCENTRATE ON MY MUSIC, I
START FUCKING UP EVERYTHING, EVENING STUDYING, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD PUT THAT GRAY NOICE
WHILE STUDYING, IT CAN BE REALLY HELPFUL.
- ONCE AGAIN I SHOUKD ALWAYS CONCENTRATE ON ONE THING AT A TIME AND DON’T OVVERIDE
EVERYTHING JUST LIKE HOWHRITHIK DOES,
- HEY! I SHOULDN’T BE MAKING FUN OF OTHER PEOPLE, LIKE I REMEMBER THE DAY LIKE USED TO
MAKE FUN OF A GUY FOR HIS SHITTY VOICE, I STARTED IMITATING HIM IN FRONT OF EVERYONE,
I USED TO MAKE FUN OF JAYANT FOR BEING DUMB, AND LOOK WHERE I HAVE BROUGHT MY SELF
INTO. THAT IS WHY STOP MAKING FUN OF OTHERS OR MAYBE DON’T MAKE FUN OF THEM IN FRONT
OR BEHIND THEIR BACKS.
- NEED TO LEARNT EPISIOTOMY, SUTURING AND CASES.
- START REMEMBERING THE PATIENT’S FACES, OTHERWISE IT WILL BE VERY TOUGH FOR YOU
- TAKE THE ATTENDER,S NUMBER AND SAVE IT ASAP BECAUSE YOU CANT KEEP ANNOYING THE
PATIENTS FOR THE NUMBER……IT IS NOT PROFFESSIONAL
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