bad idea, right?

Hey And I pull up to your place, on the second floor

And you're standin', smiling at the door
Haven't heard from you in a couple of months
But I'm out right now, and I'm all fucked up And I'm sure I've seen much hotter men
And you're callin' my phone, you're all alone But I really can't remember when
And I'm sensin' some undertone
My brain goes, "Ah"
And I'm right here with all my friends Can't hear my thoughts (I cannot hear my
But you're sendin' me your new address thoughts)
And I know we're done, I know we're through Like blah-blah-blah (blah, blah, blah, blah,
But, God, when I look at you blah, blah)
Should probably not
My brain goes, "Ah" I should probably, probably not
Can't hear my thoughts (I cannot hear my I should probably, probably not
thoughts)
Like blah-blah-blah (blah, blah, blah, blah, Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
blah, blah) Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
Should probably not Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right?
I should probably, probably not Seein' you tonight, fuck it, it's fine
I should probably, probably not
Yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right? people reconnect?
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right? "I only see him as a friend, " the biggest lie I
Seein' you tonight, it's a bad idea, right? ever said
Seein' you tonight, fuck it, it's fine Oh, yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two
people reconnect?
Yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two I only see him as a friend, I just tripped and fell
people reconnect? into his bed
"I only see him as a friend, " the biggest lie I
ever said Oh, yes, I know that he's my ex
Can't two people reconnect?
Oh, yes, I know that he's my ex, but can't two The biggest lie I ever said
people reconnect? I just tripped and fell into his bed

I only see him as a friend, I just tripped and fell My brain goes, "Ah"
into his bed Can't hear my thoughts
The biggest lie I ever said
Now I'm gettin' in the car, wreckin' all my plans My brain goes, "Ah"
I know I should stop-, but I can't Can't hear my thoughts
And I told my friends I was asleep I just tripped and fell into his bed
But I never said where or in whose sheets Thoughts
Blah
Thoughts
Blah

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 ballad of a homeschool girl
Cat got my tongue, and I don't think I get Each time I step outside, it's social suicide
along with anyone It's social suicide, wanna curl up and die
Blood runnin' cold, I'm on the outside of the It's social suicide, yeah, when I'm alone, I'm
greatest inside joke fine
And I hate all my clothes, feels like my skin But don't let me out at night, it's social
doesn't fit right over my bones suicide, it's social suicide
So I guess I should go, the party's done, and
I'm no fun, I know, I know Ah, ah, ah
I know, I know Ah, ah, ah

I broke a glass, I tripped and fell, I told I broke a glass, tripped and fell, told secrets
secrets I shouldn't tell I shouldn't tell
I stumbled over all my words, I made it Stumbled over all my words, made it weird,
weird, I made it worse then made it worse
Each time I step outside, it's social suicide Each day that I'm alive, it's social suicide
Social suicide, wanna curl up and die, it's
social suicide (ah, ah, ah) It's social suicide, wanna curl up and die, it's
social suicide
I laughed at the wrong time, sat with the It's social suicide, don't let me out at night
wrong guy (uh-huh) I'm shocked I'm still alive, it's social suicide
Searchin', "How to start a conversation?" on (ah, ah, ah)
a website (how to flirt?)
I talked to this hot guy, swore I was his type Thought your mom was your wife (ah)
Guess that he was makin' out with boys, Called you the wrong name twice (ah)
like, the whole night (oh) Can't think of a third line (ah), la-la-la-la-la-la
Everythin' I do is tragic (oh), every guy I like (ah)
is gay (oh) La-la-la-la-la-la (ah), la-la-la-la-la-la (ah)
The mornin' after, I panic (oh), oh, God, La-la-la-la-la-la, ugh
what did I say? (Oh, oh, oh)

I broke a glass, I tripped and fell, I told

secrets I shouldn't tell
I stumbled over all my words, I made it
weird, I made it worse

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 vampire
Hate to give the satisfaction, asking Can't figure out just how you do it, and
how you're doing now God knows I never will
How's the castle built off people you Went for me, and not her
pretend to care about? 'Cause girls your age know better
Just what you wanted
Look at you, cool guy, you got it I've made some real big mistakes
I see the parties and the diamonds But you make the worst one look fine
sometimes when I close my eyes I should've known it was strange
Six months of torture you sold as some You only come out at night
forbidden paradise I used to think I was smart
I loved you truly But you've made me look so naive
Gotta laugh at the stupidity The way you sold me for parts
As you sunk your teeth into me, oh
'Cause I've made some real big Bloodsucker, famefucker
mistakes Bleedin' me dry, like a goddamn
But you make the worst one look fine vampire
I should've known it was strange
You only come out at night You said it was true love, but wouldn't
I used to think I was smart that be hard?
But you made me look so naive You can't love anyone, 'cause that
The way you sold me for parts would mean you had a heart
As you sunk your teeth into me, oh I tried you help you out, now I know
Bloodsucker, famefucker that I can't
Bleedin' me dry, like a goddamn 'Cause how you think's the kind of
vampire thing I'll never understand

And every girl I ever talked to told me I've made some real big mistakes
you were bad, bad news But you make the worst one look fine
You called them crazy, God, I hate the I should've known it was strange
way I called them crazy too You only come out at night
You're so convincing I used to think I was smart
How do you lie without flinching? (How But you made me look so naive
do you lie, how do you lie, how do you The way you sold me for parts
lie?) As you sunk your teeth into me, oh
Ooh, what a mesmerizing, paralyzing, Bloodsucker, famefucker
fucked-up little thrill Bleedin' me dry, like a goddamn
vampire

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 traitor
Ooh-ooh-ooh You betrayed me
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah And I know that you'll never feel sorry
Brown guilty eyes and little white lies For the way I hurt, yeah
Yeah, I played dumb but I always knew You'd talk to her
That you'd talk to her, maybe did even worse When we were together
I kept quiet so I could keep you Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter
And ain't it funny
How you ran to her It took you two weeks
The second that we called it quits? To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
And ain't it funny But you're still a traitor
How you said you were friends?
Now it sure as hell don't look like it God, I wish that you had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you
You betrayed me (Ah-ah-ah)
And I know that you'll never feel sorry When she's sleeping in the bed we made
For the way I hurt, yeah Don't you dare forget about the way
You'd talk to her
When we were together You betrayed me
Loved you at your worst 'Cause I know that you'll never feel sorry
But that didn't matter For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
It took you two weeks When we were together
To go off and date her You gave me your word
Guess you didn't cheat But that didn't matter
But you're still a traitor It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Now you bring her around Guess you didn't cheat
Just to shut me down But you're still
Show her off like she's a new trophy You're still a traitor (ah-ah-ah)
Yeah, you're still a traitor
And I know if you were true Ooh-ooh-ooh
There's no damn way that you God, I wish that you had thought this through
Could fall in love with somebody that quickly Before I went and fell in love with you

Ain't it funny
All the twisted games
All the questions you used to avoid?

Ain't it funny?
Remember I brought her up
And you told me I was paranoid

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 drivers license
I got my driver's license last week And I know we weren't perfect
Just like we always talked about But I've never felt this way for no one,
'Cause you were so excited for me oh
To finally drive up to your house And I just can't imagine how you could
But today I drove through the suburbs be so okay now that I'm gone
Cryin' 'cause you weren't around I guess you didn't mean what you
wrote in that song about me
And you're probably with that blonde 'Cause you said forever, now I drive
girl alone past your street
Who always made me doubt
She's so much older than me Red lights, stop signs
She's everything I'm insecure about I still see your face in the white cars,
Yeah, today I drove through the front yards
suburbs Can't drive past the places we used to
'Cause how could I ever love someone go to
else? 'Cause I still fuckin' love you, babe
(ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
And I know we weren't perfect but I've Sidewalks we crossed
never felt this way for no one I still hear your voice in the traffic,
And I just can't imagine how you could we're laughing
be so okay now that I'm gone Over all the noise
Guess you didn't mean what you wrote God, I'm so blue, know we're through
in that song about me But I still fuckin' love you, babe (ooh,
'Cause you said forever, now I drive ooh, ooh, ooh)
alone past your street
I know we weren't perfect but I've
And all my friends are tired never felt this way for no one
Of hearing how much I miss you, but And I just can't imagine how you could
I kinda feel sorry for them be so okay now that I'm gone
'Cause they'll never know you the way 'Cause you didn't mean what you
that I do, yeah wrote in that song about me
Today I drove through the suburbs 'Cause you said forever, now I drive
And pictured I was driving home to you alone past your street
Yeah, you said forever, now I drive
alone past your street

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 teenage dream
When am I gonna stop being wise beyond Oh, they all say that it gets better, it gets
my years and just start being wise? better the more you grow
When am I gonna stop being a pretty Yeah, they all say that it gets better, it gets
young thing to guys? better, but what if I don't?
When am I gonna stop being great for my Oh, they all say that it gets better, it gets
age and just start being good? better the more you grow
When will it stop being cool to be quietly Yeah, they all say that it gets better, it gets
misunderstood? better, but what if I don't?
Oh, they all say that it gets better, it gets
I'll blow out the candles, happy birthday to better the more you grow
me Yeah, they all say that it gets better, it gets
Got your whole life ahead of you, you're better, but what if I don't?
only 19
But I fear that they already got all the best Is this recording?
parts of me Hi, Saoirse
And I'm sorry that I couldn't always be Hopefully, your next album'll be called
your teenage dream FART

And when does wide-eyed affection and

all good intentions start to not be enough?
When will everyone have every reason to
call all my bluffs?
And when are all my excuses of learning
my lessons gonna start to feel sad?
Will I spend all the rest of my years
wishing I could go back?

I'll blow out the candles, happy birthday to

me
Got your whole life ahead of you, you're
only 19
But I fear that they already got all the best
parts of me
And I'm sorry that I couldn't always be
your teenage dream

They all say that it gets better, it gets

better the more you grow
Yeah, they all say that it gets better, it gets
better, but what if I don't?

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 pretty isn’t pretty
Bought a bunch of makeup, tryna When pretty isn't pretty enough, what
cover up my face do you do?
I started to skip lunch, stopped eating And everybody's keeping it up, so you
cake on birthdays think it's you
Bought a new prescription to try and I could change up my body and
stay calm change up my face
'Cause there's always something I could try every lipstick in every shade
missing But I'd always feel the same
There's always something in the mirror 'Cause pretty isn't pretty enough
that I think looks wrong
And I bought all the clothes that they
When pretty isn't pretty enough, what told me to buy
do you do? I chased some dumb ideal my whole
And everybody's keeping it up, so you fucking life
think it's you And none of it matters, and none of it
I could change up my body and ends
change up my face You just feel like shit over and over
I could try every lipstick in every shade again
But I'd always feel the same
'Cause pretty isn't pretty enough No, it'll never change
anyway Pretty isn't pretty enough, mm
Everybody's keeping it up, oh
You can win the battle, but you'll never Pretty isn't pretty enough
win the war Pretty isn't-
You fix the things you hated, and you'd
still feel so insecure
And I try to ignore it, but it's everything
I see
It's on the poster on the wall, it's in the
shitty magazines
It's in my phone, it's in my head, it's in
the boys I bring to bed
It's all around, it's all the time, I don't
know why I even try

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 love is embarrassing
I told my friends you were the one 'Cause now, it don't mean a thing
After I'd known you, like, a month God, love's fuckin' embarrassing
And then, you kissed some girl from Just watch as I crucify myself
high school For some weird second string
Loser who's not worth mentioning
And I stayed in bed for, like, a week
When you said space was what you My God, love's embarrassing as hell
need I give up, give up, I give up everything
Waited by my phone like a goddamn I placed my bets and it's not worth
fool anything
I give up, give up, but I keep comin'
And now, it don't mean a thing back for more
God, love's fuckin' embarrassing
Just watch as I crucify myself Yeah, it don't mean a thing
God, love's fuckin' embarrassing
For some weird second string Just watch as I crucify myself, hey,
Loser who's not worth mentioning hey, hey
My God, love's embarrassing as hell
For some weird second-string
And I consoled you while you cried Loser who's not worth mentioning
Over your ex-girlfriend's new guy My God, love's embarrassing as hell,
My God, how could I be so stupid? yeah, yeah

You found a new version of me I give up (ah), give up, I'll give up
And I damn near started World War III everything (ah-ha)
Jesus, what was I even doin'? I'm plannin' out my wedding with some
guy I'm never marryin'
I'm givin' up, I'm givin' up, but I keep
comin' back for more

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 making the bed
Want it, so I got it, did it, so it's done And I tell someone I love them just as a
Another thing I ruined I used to do for fun distraction
Another piece of plastic I could just throw They tell me that they love me like I'm
away some tourist attraction
Another conversation with nothing good to They're changin' my machinery and I just
say let it happen
I got the things I wanted, it's just not what I
I thought it, so I said it, took it 'cause I can imagined
Another day pretendin' I'm older than I am
Another perfect moment that doesn't feel Well, sometimes I feel like I don't wanna
like mine be where I am
Another thing I forced to be a sign Gettin' drunk at a club with my fair weather
friends
Well, sometimes I feel like I don't wanna Push away all the people who know me
be where I am the best
Gettin' drunk at a club with my fair- But it's me who's been making the bed
weather friends
Push away all the people who know me I'm so tired of bein' the girl that I am
the best Every good thing has turned into
But it's me who's been making the bed something I dread
And I'm playin' the victim so well in my
I'm so tired of bein' the girl that I am head
Every good thing has turned into But it's me who's been making the bed
something I dread
And I'm playin' the victim so well in my Me who's been making the bed
head Pull the sheets over my head
But it's me who's been making the bed Making the bed

Me who's been making the bed Sometimes I feel like I don't wanna be
Pull the sheets over my head where I am
Making the bed Countin' all of the beautiful things I regret
But it's me who's been making the bed
And every night, I wake up from this one Me who's been making the bed
recurrin' dream Pull the sheets over my head
Where I'm drivin' through the city and the Making a bed, oh-oh
brakes go out on me
I can't stop at the red light, I can't swerve
off the road
I read somewhere it's 'cause my life feels
so out of control

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 logical
Master manipulator 'Cause loving you is loving every
God, you're so good at what you do
Come for me like a savior Argument you held over my head
And I'd put myself through hell for you Brought up the girls you could have
Hear all the rumors lately instead
That you always denied Said I was too young, I was too soft
Can't take a joke, can't get you off
And I fell for you like water Oh, why do I do this?
Falls from the February sky
But now the current's stronger I look so stupid thinking
No, I couldn't get out if I tried Two plus two equals five
But you convinced me, baby And I'm the love of your life
It was all in my mind 'Cause if rain don't pour and sun don't
shine
And now you got me thinking Then changing you is possible
Two plus two equals five No, love is never logical
And I'm the love of your life
'Cause if rain don't pour and sun don't Logical, logical
shine Love is never logical
Then changing you is possible I know I'm half responsible
No, love is never logical And that makes me feel horrible

You built a giant castle Oh, logical, logical

With walls so high I couldn't see Love is never logical
The way it all unraveled I know I could've stopped it all
And all the things you did to me God, why didn't I stop it all?
You lied, you lied, you lied
Oh, logical, logical
Oh, and now you got me thinking Love is never logical
Two plus two equals five I know I'm half responsible
And I'm the love of your life And that makes me feel horrible
'Cause if rain don't pour and sun don't
shine Oh, logical, logical
Then changing you is possible Love is never logical
I guess love is never logical I know I could've stopped it all
God, why didn't I stop it all?
The sky is green, the grass is red and
You mean all those words you said
I'm sure that girl is really your friend
Problems are all solvable

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 enough for you
I wore makeup when we dated Before you found someone more exciting
'Cause I thought you'd like me more The next second, you were gone
If I looked like the other prom queens And you left me there cryin', wonderin'
I know that you loved before what I did wrong
Tried so hard to be everything that you And you always say I'm never satisfied
liked But I don't think that's true
Just for you to say you're not the 'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough
compliment type
Don't you think I loved you too much to be
And I knew how you took your coffee used and discarded?
And your favorite songs by heart Don't you think I loved you too much to
I read all of your self-help books think I deserve nothing?
So you'd think that I was smart But don't tell me you're sorry, boy
Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me Feel sorry for yourself
I knew from the start this is exactly how 'Cause someday I'll be everything to
you'd leave somebody else
And they'll think that I am so exciting
You found someone more exciting And you'll be the one who's crying
The next second, you were gone
And you left me there cryin', wonderin' Yeah, you always say I'm never satisfied
what I did wrong But I don't think that's true
And you always say I'm never satisfied You say I'm never satisfied
But I don't think that's true But that's not me, it's you
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough 'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough
for you But I don't think anything could ever be
And all I ever wanted was to be enough enough
for you For you, enough for you, oh-oh
No, nothing's enough for you
And maybe I'm just not as interesting
As the girls you had before
But God, you couldn't have cared less
About someone who loved you more
I'd say you broke my heart
But you broke much more than that
Now I don't want your sympathy
I just want myself back

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 lacy
Lacy, oh, Lacy, skin like puff pastry
Aren't you the sweetest thing on this side of hell?
Dear angel Lacy, eyes white as daisies
Did I ever tell you that I'm not doing well?

Ooh, I care, I care, I care

Like perfume that you wear
I linger all the time
Watchin', hidden in plain sight
Ooh, I try, I try, I try
But it takes over my life
I see you everywhere
The sweetest torture one could bear

Smart sexy Lacy, I'm losing it lately

I feel your compliments like bullets on skin
Dazzling starlet, Bardot reincarnate
Well, aren't you the greatest thing to ever exist?

Ooh, I care, I care, I care

Like ribbons in your hair
My stomach's all in knots
You got the one thing that I want
Ooh, I try, I try, I try
Try to rationalize
People are people
But it's like you're made of angel dust

Lacy, oh, Lacy, it's like you're out to get me

You poison every little thing that I do
Lacy, oh, Lacy, I just loathe you lately
And I despise my jealous eyes and how hard they fell for you
Yeah, I despise my rotten mind and how much it worships you

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 so american
Drivin' on the right-side road I might just be in lo-lo-, lo-lo-, lo-lo-, lo-
He says I'm pretty wearin' his clothes lo-love
And he's got hands that make Hell I apologize if it's a little too much, just
seem cold a little too soon
Feet on the dashboard, he's like a But if the conversation ever were to
poem I wish I wrote come up
I wish I wrote I don't wanna assume this stuff
But ain't it love?
And he laughs at all my jokes I think I'm in love
And he says I'm so American
Oh, God, it's just not fair of him And he laughs at all my jokes
To make me feel this much And he says I'm so American
I'd go anywhere he goes Oh, God, it's just not fair of him
And he says I'm so American To make me feel this much
Oh, God, I'm gonna marry him I'd go anywhere he goes
If he keeps this shit up And he says I'm so American
I might just be in lo-lo-, lo-lo-, lo-lo-, lo- Oh, God, I'm gonna marry him
lo-lo-lo-love If he keeps this shit up
I might just be in lo-lo-, lo-lo-, lo-lo-, lo-
God, I'm so boring, and I'm so rude lo-lo-lo-love
Can't have a conversation if it's not all
about you Okay
The way you dress, and the books you Stop it
read Come on
I really love my bed, but, man, it's hard Ah
to sleep when he's with me Ah
When he's with me

And he laughs at all my jokes

And he says I'm so American
Oh, God, it's just not fair of him
To make me feel this much
I'd go anywhere he goes
And he says I'm so American
Oh, God, I'm gonna marry him
If he keeps this shit up

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 jealousy, jealousy
I kinda wanna throw my phone across Co-co-comparison is killing me slowly
the room I think, I think too much
'Cause all I see are girls too good to 'Bout kids who don't know me
be true I'm so sick of myself
With paper-white teeth and perfect I'd rather be, rather be
bodies Anyone, anyone else
Wish I didn't care My jealousy, jealousy (yeah)

I know their beauty's not my lack All your friends are so cool, you go out
But it feels like that weight is on my every night
back In your daddy's nice car, yeah, you're
And I can't let it go living the life
Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend
Co-comparison is killing me slowly too
I think, I think too much I wanna be you so bad, and I don't
'Bout kids who don't know me even know you
I'm so sick of myself All I see is what I should be
I'd rather be, rather be Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy
Anyone, anyone else All I see is what I should be
My jealousy, jealousy I'm losing it, all I get's, jealousy,
Started following me (he-he-he, he-he) jealousy
Started following me (he-he-he, he-he)
Co-comparison is killing me slowly
And I see everyone getting all the I think, I think too much
things I want 'Bout kids who don't know me
And I'm happy for them, but then And I'm so sick of myself
again, I'm not I'd rather be, rather be (oh, oh)
Just cool vintage clothes and vacation Anyone, anyone else (anybody else)
photos Jealousy, jealousy
I can't stand it, oh, God, I sound crazy
Oh, I'm so sick of myself
Their win is not my loss I'd rather be, rather be (oh-oh)
I know it's true Anyone, anyone else
But I can't help getting caught up in it Jealousy, jealousy
all Started following me

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 happier
We broke up a month ago I hope you're happy
Your friends are mine, you know, I know I wish you all the best, really
You've moved on, found someone new Say you love her, baby, just not like you
One more girl who brings out the better in loved me
you And think of me fondly when your hands
are on her
And I thought my heart was detached I hope you're happy, but don't be happier
From all the sunlight of our past
But she's so sweet, she's so pretty Ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Does she mean you forgot about me?
Ooh-ooh
Oh, I hope you're happy
But not like how you were with me I hope you're happy
I'm selfish, I know, I can't let you go Just not like how you were with me
So find someone great, but don't find no I'm selfish, I know, can't let you go
one better So find someone great, but don't find no
I hope you're happy, but don't be happier one better
I hope you're happy, but don't be happier
And do you tell her she's the most
beautiful girl you've ever seen?
An eternal love bullshit you know you'll
never mean
Remember when I believed you meant it
when you said it first to me?

And now I'm pickin' her apart

Like cuttin' her down will make you miss
my wretched heart
But she's beautiful, she looks kind
She probably gives you butterflies

I hope you're happy

But not like how you were with me
I'm selfish, I know, I can't let you go
So find someone great but don't find no
one better

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 favorite crime
Know that I loved you so bad
I let you treat me like that
I was your willing accomplice, honey

And I watched as you fled the scene

Doe-eyed as you buried me
One heart broke, four hands bloody

Those things I did

Just so I could call you mine
The things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime

You used me as an alibi

I crossed my heart as you crossed the line
And I defended you to all my friends

And now, every time a siren sounds

I wonder if you're around
'Cause you know that I'd do it all again

All the things I did

Just so I could call you mine
The things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime

It's bittersweet to think about the damage that we do

'Cause I was going down, but I was doing it with you
Yeah, everything we broke, and all the trouble that we made
But I say that I hate you with a smile on my face

Oh, look what we became

All the things I did

Just so I could call you mine
All the things you did
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime

Your favorite crime

Your favorite crime
'Cause baby, you were mine

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 deja vu
Car rides to Malibu That we did that, too?
Strawberry ice cream She thinks it's special
One spoon for two But it's all reused
And trading jackets That was the show we talked about
Laughing 'bout how small it looks on you Played you the song she's singing now
(Ha-ha-ha-ha, ha-ha-ha-ha, ha-ha-ha-ha) when she's with you
Watching reruns of Glee
Being annoying Do you get déjà vu when she's with you?
Singing in harmony Do you get déjà vu? Oh
I bet she's bragging Do you get déjà vu?
To all her friends, saying you're so unique,
hmm Strawberry ice cream in Malibu
Don't act like we didn't do that shit, too
So when you gonna tell her You're trading jackets like we used to do
That we did that, too? (Yeah, everything is all reused)
She thinks it's special Play her piano, but she doesn't know (oh,
But it's all reused oh)
That was our place, I found it first That I was the one who taught you Billy
I made the jokes you tell to her when she's Joel (oh)
with you A different girl now, but there's nothing
new
Do you get déjà vu when she's with you? (I know you get déjà vu)
Do you get déjà vu? (Ah), hmm
Do you get déjà vu, huh?

Do you call her

Almost say my name?
'Cause let's be honest
We kinda do sound the same
Another actress
I hate to think that I was just your type

I'll bet that she knows Billy Joel

'Cause you played her "Uptown Girl"
You're singing it together
Now I bet you even tell her
How you love her
In between the chorus and the verse (ooh)
(I love you)
So when you gonna tell her

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 the grudge
I have nightmares each week about that And we both drew blood, but, man, those
Friday in May cuts were never equal
One phone call from you and my entire
world was changed And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream
Trust that you betrayed, confusion that still How could anybody do the things you did
lingers so easily?
Took everything I loved and crushed it in And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine
between your fingers But you know I can't let it go
And I doubt you ever think about the I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long
damage that you did It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel
But I hold onto every detail like my life strong
depends on it
My undying love, now I hold it like a Ooh, do you think I deserved it all?
grudge Ooh, your flowers filled with vitriol
And I hear your voice every time that I You built me up to watch me fall
think I'm not enough You have everything and you still want
more
And I try to be tough, but I wanna scream
How could anybody do the things you did I try to be tough, I try to be mean
so easily? But even after all this, you're still
And I say I don't care, I say that I'm fine everything to me
But you know I can't let it go And I know you don't care, I guess that
I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long that's fine
It takes strength to forgive, but I don't feel But you know I can't let it go
strong I've tried, I've tried, I've tried for so long
It takes strength to forgive, but I'm not
The arguments that I have won against quite sure I'm there yet
you in my head It takes strength to forgive, but
In the shower, in the car and in the mirror
before bed
Yeah, I'm so tough when I'm alone and I
make you feel so guilty
And I fantasize about a time you're a little
fuckin' sorry
And I try to understand why you would do
this all to me
You must be insecure, you must be so
unhappy
And I know in my heart hurt people hurt
people

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 brutal
I want it to be, like, messy But I wish I could disappear
I'm so insecure, I think Ego crush is so severe
That I'll die before I drink God, it's brutal out here
And I'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me, and who hates you Got a broken ego, broken heart (it's brutal
And I'm so tired that I might out here, it's brutal out here)
Quit my job, start a new life And God, I don't even know where to start
And they'd all be so disappointed
'Cause, who am I, if not exploited?

And I'm so sick of 17

Where's my fucking teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
"Enjoy your youth, " I'm gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself
I'm anxious and nothing can help
And I wish I'd done this before
And I wish people liked me more

All I did was try my best

This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here

I feel like no one wants me

And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
And lately, I'm a nervous wreck
'Cause I love people I don't like
And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool and I'm not smart
And I can't even parallel park

All I did was try my best

This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years

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 all-american bitch
I am light as a feather I don't get angry when I'm pissed
I'm as stiff as a board I'm the eternal optimist
I pay attention to things that most people I scream inside to deal with it
ignore Like, "Ah"
And I'm alright with the movies that make Like, "Ah" (oh my fucking God)
jokes 'bout senseless cruelty
That's for sure All the time
And I am built like a mother and a total I'm grateful all the time
machine I'm sexy and I'm kind
I feel for your every little issue I'm pretty when I cry
I know just what you mean Oh, all the time
And I make light of the darkness I'm grateful all the fucking time
I've got sun in my motherfucking pocket, I'm sexy and I'm kind
best believe I'm pretty when I cry
Yeah, you know me, I

Forgive and I forget

I know my age and I act like it
Got what you can't resist
I'm a perfect all-American

I am light as a feather
I'm as fresh as the air
Coca-Cola bottles that I only use to curl
my hair
I got class and integrity
Just like a goddamn Kennedy
I swear
With love to spare, I

Forgive and I forget

I know my age and I act like it
Got what you can't resist
I'm a perfect all-American bitch
With perfect all-American lips
And perfect all-American hips
I know my place, I know my place, and
this is it

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 good 4 u
Well, good for you, I guess you moved on Well, good for you, you look happy and
really easily healthy
You found a new girl, and it only took a couple Not me, if you ever cared to ask
weeks Good for you, you're doing great out there
Remember when you said that you wanted to without me, baby
give me the world? (World) God, I wish that I could do that
And good for you, I guess that you've been
working on yourself I've lost my mind, I've spent the night
I guess that therapist I found for you, she Crying on the floor of my bathroom
really helped But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it
Now you can be a better man for your brand- But I guess good for you
new girl
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Well, good for you, you look happy and Ah-ah-ah-ah
healthy
Not me, if you ever cared to ask Maybe I'm too emotional
Good for you, you're doing great out there But your apathy is like a wound in salt
without me, baby Maybe I'm too emotional
God, I wish that I could do that Or maybe you never cared at all
Maybe I'm too emotional
I've lost my mind, I've spent the night Your apathy is like a wound in salt
Crying on the floor of my bathroom Maybe I'm too emotional
But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it Or maybe you never cared at all
But I guess good for you
Well, good for you, you look happy and
Well, good for you, I guess you're gettin' healthy
everything you want (ah) Not me, if you ever cared to ask
You bought a new car and your career's really Good for you, you're doing great out there
takin' off (ah) without me, baby
It's like we never even happened, baby, what Like a damn sociopath
the fuck is up with that? (Ha)
And good for you, it's like you never even met I've lost my mind, I've spent the night
me Crying on the floor of my bathroom
Remember when you swore to God I was the But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it
only But I guess good for you
Person who ever got you? Well, screw that
and screw you Well, good for you, I guess you moved on
You will never have to hurt the way you know really easily
that I do

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 get him back!
One, two, three And I want him again
Wait, is this the song with the drums? I want to get him back (and then? And then)
I want to get him back, back, back
I met a guy in the summer and I left him in the spring
He argued with me about everything I wanna key his car (I want to get him back)
He had an ego and a temper and a wandering eye I wanna make him lunch (but then I, I want to get him
He said he's six-foot-two, and I'm like, "Dude, nice try" back)
But he was so much fun and he had such weird friends I wanna break his heart (but then I, I want to get him
And he would take us out to parties and the night back)
would never end And be the one to stitch it up (but then I, I want to get
Another song, another club, another bar, another him back)
dance Wanna kiss his face (but then I, I want to get him back)
And when he said something wrong, he'd just fly me to With an uppercut (but then I, I want to get him back)
France I wanna meet his mom (but then I, I want to get him
So I miss him some nights when I'm feeling depressed back)
'Til I remember every time he made a pass on my Just to tell her her son sucks (but then I, I want to get
friend him back)
Do I love him? Do I hate him? I guess it's up and down
If I had to choose, I would say right now Oh, I wanna key his car (I want to get him back)
I wanna make him lunch
I wanna get him back I wanna break his heart (but then I, I want to get him
I wanna make him really jealous, wanna make him feel back)
bad Stitch it right back up
Oh, I wanna get him back I wanna kiss his face (I want to get him back)
'Cause then again, I really miss him, and it makes me With an uppercut
real sad I wanna meet his mom (but then I, I want to get him
Oh, I want sweet revenge back)
And I want him again And tell her her son sucks, yeah
I want to get him back, back, back
I wanna get him back
So I write him all these letters and I throw them in the I wanna make him really jealous, wanna make him feel
trash bad
'Cause I miss the way he kisses and the way he made Oh, I wanna get him back
me laugh 'Cause then again I really miss him, and it makes me
Yeah, I pour my little heart out, but as I'm hitting real sad
"Send" Oh, I want sweet revenge
I picture all the faces of my disappointed friends And I want him again
Because everyone knew all of the shit that he'd do I want to get him back (and then? And then)
He said I was the only girl but that just wasn't the truth I want to get him back, back, back, back
And when I told him how he hurt me, he'd tell me I was
trippin' I'll get him, I'll get him, I'll get him, I'll get him back
But I am my father's daughter, so maybe I could fix him Get him back, come on, come on
I'm gonna get him so good, he won't even know what
I wanna get him back hit him
I wanna make him really jealous, wanna make him feel He's gonna love me and hate me at the same time
bad Get him back, girl, you better get him back
Oh, I wanna get him back I don't know I got him good, I got him really good
'Cause then again, I really miss him, and it makes me
real sad
Oh, I want sweet revenge

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