1. Yes, you were right about this one. I fell for you a long ago.

Couldn't say and kept it

simple because I had the fear of losing you, ofc. And ofc you were not ready.
So when did I fall? 22 September. Why?
You know about my panic attacks, right? On my way home I had a bad dream about you
and a terrible panic attack. That's when I knew something happened. But I didn't believe
it and kept on pushing myself not to. That made me fall even harder.
When did the love happen? Not long after my fall. Sorry that I did not share it with you.
But I was. Maybe that was way before you fell for me, let alone in love. Ejonnei pore love
er bishshash na howate kharaap laagto bub. You don't know how much I want you in my
lap every moment. I have learnt many things, yes. Most importantly, I learnt to cry, for
you. Thank you for bringing back my emotional attachment. Thank you for everything
you did for me. I hope, someday, I get a chance of giving everything back.
And well, as far as I can remember, something happened that day, 22 September.
Family stuff maybe. Forgotten. With the bad dream. With your being in a ship with bio.
YES I BELIEVED THAT. SORRY.
I broke down, completely. I tried my best to be with you and not to cry. I failed to do so
and I failed to hide it as well.
I started making fun of the situation, I started straying from the topic. Sarah er shathe
prem koraye dei aay, etc. Sorry for the every time I hid my fall from you. Sorry for the
every time I couldn't express any Baal about what I feel. You are or were everything to
me, all along. A friend, a savior, a love, a conceited and affectionate senior, an adorable
junior, a best bud, a sister I never had (long before I fell ofc), and last but not the least,
my girlfriend.
Everything. Thank you bub.