DERRIDA TRANSCRIPT

TITLE CARD: JANE DOE FILMS

LAVENIR (We hear Derridas voice speaking in French while watching the
Seine and Parisian landscape passing by through a car window.)
DERRIDA:
In general, I try to distinguish between what one calls the future and
lavenir. The future is that which tomorrow, later, next century will be.
Theres a future which is predictable, programmed, scheduled, foreseeable.
But there is a future, lavenir (to come) which refers to someone who comes
whose arrival is totally unexpected. For me, that is the real future. That
which is totally unpredictable. The Other who comes without my being able
to anticipate their arrival. So if there is a real future beyond this other known
future, its lavenir in that its the coming of the Other when I am completely
unable to foresee their arrival.
KEYS (Interior, Derridas home in Ris-Orangis, France)
MARGUERITE:
Jackie, do you have your keys?
DERRIDA:
Yes, I have them.
MEDIA ON DERRIDA
POLISH NEWSCASTER:
This century has given us philosophers of highest caliber, notables like
Husserl, Bergson, Wittgenstein, Heidegger, Ricoeur, and Levinas. It would
seem that the list of the centurys greatest men of thought would be closed.
Who else could possibly compare to them? And yet, this list of great thinkers
would not be complete without Jacques Derrida.
KEYS
DERRIDA:
Forgive me for not even saying hello. Its a bit difficult
MEDIA ON DERRIDA
BBC NEWSCASTER:
Good Evening, later on tonights late show we look at the French philosopher
Jacques Derrida, founder of the post-structuralist mode of analysis known as
deconstruction and internationally acknowledged by many as one of the most
innovative and inspiring of contemporary philosophers.

KEYS
DERRIDA:
Okay, Ive got my keys. So youre going to follow me? When we get there,
theres a garage, and Ill have to speak to someone at the hair salon about
arranging to park your car.
MEDIA ON DERRIDA
BELGIAN NEWSCASTER:
Born in El Biar, Algeria, Jacques Derridas name is now known on five
continents. Hes a thinker of lightening thoughts whose work is like that of
miners who work by exploding the beams supporting their shafts.
OPENING TITLE SEQUENCE
MUSIC COMPOSED BY
RYUICHI SAKAMOTO
EDITED BY
KIRBY DICK
MATTHEW CLARKE
ASSOCIATE PRODUCER
GIL KOFMAN
CAMERA
KIRSTEN JOHNSON
PRODUCER
AMY ZIERING KOFMAN
DIRECTED BY
KIRBY DICK
AMY ZIERING KOFMAN
DERRIDA
WALKING NY/STAR
ALAN CHODOLENKO (Professor, University of Sydney, Australia):
My theory is that Americans exist to the degree that theyre being filmed or
believe themselves to be filmed. This is their natural condition.
DERRIDA:
You see how Americanized I am.
Careful.

(Derrida pointing to camerawoman)

She sees everything around me but she is totally blind. Thats the image of
the philosopher who falls in the well, while looking at the star. (Derrida points
to himself).
I have these people around all the time, day and night, wherever I am.
GIRL:
Its like the Loud family.
DERRIDA:
For two weeks now they have been constantly tracking me.
GIRL:
So are you getting used to it?
DERRIDA:
Sometimes I forget, I just forget.
NYU BIOGRAPHY CONFERENCE
DERRIDA: (NYU)
We should not neglect the fact that some biographies -- written by people
that have authority in the academy -- finally invest this authority in a book,
which for centuries, sometimes after the death of an author, represents the
truth. The truth. Say someone interested in biography writes: The Life and
Works of Heidegger, well documented, apparently consistent, and its the
only one, published under the authority of a good press, okay, and then
Heideggers image, Heideggers life image is fixed and stabilized for
centuries. Thats why I would say that sometimes the one who reads a text
by a philosopher, for instance, one tiny paragraph, and interprets it in a
rigorous and inventive and powerfully deciphering fashion, is more of a real
biographer than the one who knows the whole story.
JACKET (Laguna home interior)
DERRIDA:
This is the blue jacket I have.
AZK:
Thats nice.
DERRIDA:
But this doesnt fit with this... This is black and this is not blue, o.k. and I
usually cant
AZK:

I know, we wont get your bottom half, can I just see it what it looks like, is
that okay? Im sorry to trouble you.
NYU BIOGRAPHY CONFERENCE -- BORN THOUGHT DIED
DERRIDA:
As you know the traditional philosophy excludes biography, considers
biography as something external to philosophy. You remember Heideggers
statement about Aristotle....Heidegger once was asked I think What was the
life of Aristotle? What could we answer to the question what was Aristotles
life? Well the answer is very simple, Aristotle was a philosopher, and the
answer holds in one sentence: He was born, he thought, and he died. And
all the rest is pure anecdote.
FACTS (Derrida walking through streets of Paris)
V/O:
His Mothers grave is profaned. His parents never read any of his books. He
cries out: Mommy Im scared every night until she lets him sleep on a sofa
near them. One side of his face is paralyzed for three weeks leaving his eye
open continuously unblinking. His father composes his own death notice
shortly before he dies of cancer. He is expelled from school because he is
Jewish. He learns he was given a secret name, Eli, after the Jewish prophet
Elijah that isnt on his birth certificate. He fails his first entrance exam to the
University. He writes his first novel at age fifteen about the theft of a diary
and blackmail for its return. He pretends to learn Hebrew so as to read it
without understanding it. He is arrested and thrown in prison for 24 hours in
Prague for transporting drugs which the authorities plant on him. He receives
a collect call from someone who identifies himself as Martini Heidegger. He
doesnt circumcise his sons greatly upsetting his Mother and Father. As an
adolescent he dreams of becoming a professional soccer player. He declines
and offer from Marguerite Duras to play a part in one of her films. He suffers
from sleeplessness and nervous collapse from the overuse of sleeping tablets
and amphetamines. His older brother lives only seven days, dying just a year
before he is born.
NYU BIOGRAPHY CONFERENCE - INDECENT
DERRIDA:
If classical philosophers usually avoid autobiography, it is because they think
its indecent. That is, a philosopher should not speak of himself as an
empirical being. And this impoliteness, or this politeness is philosophy itself,
in principle. So if we want to break with this philosophical axiom, classical
philosophical axiom, according to which a philosopher should not present
himself or give in to autobiography, then we have to be indecent to some
extent.

HAIRCUT (Salon in Ris-Orangis, France)

THE EAR OF THE OTHER 1982
V/O:
We no longer consider the biography of a philosopher as a set of empirical
accidents that leaves one with a name that would then itself be offered up to
philosophical reading, the only kind of reading held to be philosophically
legitimate. Neither readings of philosophical systems nor external empirical
readings have ever in themselves questioned the dynamics of that borderline
between the work and the life, between the system and the subject of the
system. This borderline is neither active or passive, its neither outside nor
inside. It is most especially not a thin line, an invisible or indivisible trait that
lies between the philosophy on the one hand, and the life of an author on the
other.
STUDENTS MEET DERRIDA NORTHWESTERN U.
STUDENT #1:
Listening to you speak just elucidated your texts just so much for me.
DERRIDA:
Thank you. Thank you.
STUDENT #1:
But I just wanted to meet you.
STUDENT #2:
I read one of your novels over the summer... I just wanted to hear you speak
so I could understand it better.
STUDENT #3:
I started reading about negative theology and I was wondering if there was
any connection.(conversation trails off)
MICROPHONE INTEREFERENCE
YOUR NAME IS SYNON WITH DECON (Home in Paris)
AZK:
Youre very well known in the states for deconstruction. Can you talk a little
about the origin of that idea?
DERRIDA:
Before responding to this question, I want to make a preliminary remark on
the completely artificial character of this situation. I dont know whos going
to be watching this, but I want to underline rather than efface our
surrounding technical conditions, and not to feign a naturality which

doesnt exist. Ive already in a way started to respond to your question about
deconstruction because one of the gestures of deconstruction is to not
naturalize what isnt natural to not assume that what is conditioned by
history, institutions, or society is natural.
MEMOIRES FOR PAUL DE MAN 1986
V/O:
The very condition of a deconstruction may be at work in the work, within the
system to be deconstructed. It may already be located there, already at
work. Not at the center, but in an eccentric center, in a corner whose
eccentricity assures the solid concentration of the system, participating in the
construction of what it, at the same time, threatens to deconstruct. One
might then be inclined to reach this conclusion: deconstruction is not an
operation that supervenes afterwards, from the outside, one fine day. It is
always already at work in the work. Since the destructive force of
deconstruction is always already contained within the very architecture of the
work, all one would finally have to do to be able to deconstruct, given this
always already, is to do memory work. Yet since I want neither to accept or
to reject a conclusion formulated in precisely these terms, let us leave this
question suspended for the moment.
EHHES LECTURE (Paris)
DERRIDA:
I want to explain the presence of and ask for your permission for this film
crew on my left. Theyll be recording some images and I hope this occurs as
imperceptibly as all the other recording devices weve become accustomed
to. Recording devices, notably video or filmic ones, have been a topic of our
seminar. On several occasions, we examined them in light of the example
posed by the Rodney King verdict. (This is a California film crew, by the
way). In that case we posed the question: What happens to the testimonial
archive when one takes into account that the classic definition of testimony
excludes the intervention of recording devices? So as an experiment well see
what its like to work for a moment in the presence of these archiving
machines.
HOME OFFICE (Ris-Orangis)
DERRIDA (talking on the phone):
Agnes called me yesterday to talk about meeting... its canceled? Yes,... yes..
well, thats not bad...
DERRIDA (talking to the camera):
So, this is what you call cinema verite?

Everything is false. Almost, almost everything. Im not really like this. First of
all, I dont usually dress like this.
AZK:
No?
DERRIDA:
No, you must know that when I stay at home alone in the daytime, I dont
get dressed. I stay in my pajamas and a bathrobe.
AZK:
All day?
DERRRIDA:
Yes until I leave the house. When I spend all the whole day at home, I dont
get dressed.
DISSEMINATION 1972
V/O:
Who is it that is addressing you? Since it is not an author, a narrator, or a
deus ex machina it is an I that is both part of the spectacle and part of the
audience. An I that, a bit like you, undergoes its own incessant violent
reinscription within the arithmetical machinery. An I that functioning as a
pure passageway for operations of substitution is not some singular and
irreplaceable existence, some subject or life. But only rather moves between
life and death, between reality and fiction. An I that is a mere function or
phantom.
IMPROV ONE -- BODY PARTS
DERRIDA:
Let me think. To go back to what we were saying earlier about seeing and
touching, about seeing and speaking, and seeing and touchingInstead of
getting enmeshed in a profound meditation on sight which Ive written about
and discussed at length elsewhere, Id like to say that what interests me
about the eyes is that they are the part of the body that doesnt age. In
other words, of one looks for ones childhood across all signs of aging in the
body -- the deterioration of musculature, the whitening of the hair, changes
in height and weight -- one can find ones childhood in the look of the eyes.
And whats striking about this is that a man of my age keeps the exact same
eyes that he had as a child. Hegel says that the eyes are the outer
manifestation of the soul. Through the eyes, the inner soul presents itself to
the outside. But I translate this thought as follows: That ones act of looking
has no age. Ones eyes are the same all of ones life. And Ill say something
related to this about the subject of hands. In a book I just published, I spoke

a lot about hands. Im very interested in the hands of philosophers. Ive

written a text on the hands of Heidegger, which also references the hands of
Kant, HusserlSo the hands of philosophers interest me a lot. And what they
say about hands, and the privilege thats given to this part of the body.
Keeping in mind that theres a history of the hand, the evolution of man,
what we call the hominization of the animal, occurs via the transformation of
the hand. I think that its not the body of the hand that stays the same, the
hand changes from childhood to old age. It is the eyes and hands that are
the sites of recognition, the signs through which one identifies the Other. To
return to the question of narcissism, they are, paradoxically, the parts that
we see the least easily. We can look in a mirror and see ourselves and have a
reasonably accurate sense of what we look like. But it's very difficult to have
an image of our own act of looking or to have a true image of our own hands
as they are moving. Its the Other who knows what our hands and eyes are
like. These how do you say these gestures of the hands, are seen better
by the Other than by myself.
PORTRAIT (Cathedral Gallery, Paris)
AZK:
And when you see this, what do you think?
DERRIDA:
This portrait of me? It makes me very anxious. Weve already spoken a great
deal about the difficult rapport I have with my image. So I arrived here quite
worried. But Im not going to make any aesthetic evaluations. I can only say
I accept.
AZK:
Its a strange feeling isnt it?
DERRIDA:
Its very strange. But there are strange things against which one revolts, and
others which one accepts. Its uncanny. Its bizarre. But I dont have the
desire to destroy it as I often have with other photos or images. Its a very
nice gift she has given me. Shes given to a little narcissist. An old narcissist.
LA COUPOLE (Paris)
POINTS 1992
V/O:
There is not narcissism and non-narcissism. There are narcissisms that are
more or less comprehensive, generous, open, extended. What is called nonnarcissism is in general but the economy of a much more welcoming and
hospitable narcissism. One that is much more open to the experience of the
Other as Other. I believe that without a movement of narcissistic
reappropriation, the relation to the Other would be absolutely destroyed, it

would be destroyed in advance. The relation to the Other, even if it remains

asymmetrical, open, without possible reappropriation, must trace a
movement of reappropriation in the image of ones self for love to be
possible. Love is narcissistic.
DINNER PARTY (Paris, Home of Rene and Chantal Major)
AZK:
How did you two meet? Wait a second cut.
DERRIDA:
How can I start to think about responding to your question when you
interrupt me to adjust the lights and then you interrupt me a second time I
cant do it.
AZK:
So you never can forget the camera?
DERRIDA:
But when I forget, theres a problem, and Im forced to stop mid-sentence for
you to readjust what do you call that there? Protector? Oh, reflector. One
starts to reflect on ones response, and the reflector interrupts the reflection.
Its difficult. Okay, repeat your question.
AZK:
How did you two meet?
DERRIDA:
Should we tell or no?
MARGUERITE:
Go ahead tell. Tell.
DERRIDA:
Im not going to tell you everything. No. Im just going to tell you superficial
things. I was a student with Marguerites brother at the same school Ecole
Normale Suprieure, 1952.
MARGUERITE:
So there was a pretty strong probability that wed meet.
DERRIDA:
Then one winter, the first year we were together at this school, we went
skiing together, her brother, me and some friends. And thats when I met
Marguerite. Im not going into more detail, but it was in 53. And then we
didnt see each other for awhile, the she invited me to have lunch with her
family, and it started like that.

AZK:
Marguerite, Do you remember the first time you saw Jacques?
MARGUERITE:
Yes. yes. In the snow.
DERRIDA:
She seems to be surprised that we actually remember
MARGUERITE:
He came to the village in the mountains where I was staying.
DERRIDA:
Youve hit an area where youre not going to get much information from us.
Its very difficult to speak of these things in front of a camera. I can give you
the facts, the dates... We were married in the States in 1957. These are
facts. Raw facts.
AZK:
Yes. It seems you have rules youve already decided to only tell me facts.
Why have you imposed this decision to not disclose anything?
MARGUERITE:
Its just not that easy
MARGUERITE LEAVING (Ris-Orangis)
MARGUERITE:
Okay, goodbye everybody. Goodbye, have fun.
ANECDOTE INTERVIEW (Laguna)
AZK:
What Id like to ask you about now is this question of the anecdote. At the
biography conference you quoted Heidegger as saying that one could sum up
the life of Aristotle as: Aristotle was born, he thought, and he died. And then
when I asked you about your relationship with Marguerite, you said I can
give you the facts, the dates, and thats it. Can you offer some commentary
on that?
DERRIDA:
Even though Im not in agreement with Heidegger when he says the life of a
philosopher can be summed up as his birth, death, and thought, and I can
explain the reasons why Im not in agreement with him. Nevertheless, I feel
close to him and understand what he says, and in a certain manner I
subscribe to his belief as well. That is to say if the story of ones life, the
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what remains essential for both me and Heidegger to know, is what a person
thinks and writes philosophically. When I said earlier in that clip you showed
me that youre not going to get much information from us, it wasnt simply
because I believed things had to be hidden, but because its difficult to speak
of personal things under these conditions, when one is only able to say a few
phrases in front of a camera. Even when I confide things that are very secret,
I dont confide them in mode of a story. At times, I provide certain signs,
facts, dates, but otherwise, I dont write a narrative. And so the question for
me is the question of narration, which has always been a serious question for
me. Ive always said I cant tell a story. Id love to tell stories, but I dont
know how to tell them. And Ive always felt that the telling is somehow
inadequate to the story Id want to tell. So Ive just given up telling stories.
Ive just given up.
WATCHING HOW DID YOU TWO MEET? (Los Angeles)
AZK:
How did you two meet?
DERRIDA:
Should we tell or not?
MARGUERITE:
Go ahead tell.
DERRIDA:
Im not going to tell you everything. No. Im just going to tell you superficial
things.
NO MEMORY OF? (Laguna)
AZK:
Was it strange to see something you have no memory of?
DERRIDA:
Yes, I dont remember at all the first time you asked me and Marguerite
about how we first met. I dont remember this at all. I like that scene
precisely because we dont say anything. We think the same thing, but we
dont say it. I was moved by the scene, I liked it a lot. But I liked it precisely
because we said nothing. We were about to say something but we remained
on the edge of an impossible confidence.
JACQUES AND MARGUERITE EXITING EHESS (Paris)

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IMPROV 2 -- LOVE
AZK:
Just whatever you want to say about love
DERRIDA:
About what?
AZK:
Love.
DERRIDA:
Love or Death?
AZK:
Love, not death. Weve heard enough about death.
DERRIDA:
Love?
AZK:
Love.
DERRIDA:
I have nothing to say about love. At least pose a question. I cant examine
love just like that. You need to pose a question. Im not capable of talking
in generalities about love. Im not capableMaybe thats what you want me
to say in front of the camera, that I have nothing to say about love in
general.
AZK:
Could you explain why this topic has concerned philosophers for centuries?
Its an important philosophical subject, isnt it?
DERRIDA:
You cant ask this of me Amy. Why have philosophers always spoken of love?
Thats how philosophy started No, no. Its not possible. I have an empty
head on love in general. And as for the reason philosophy has often spoken
of love, I either have nothing to say, or Id just be reciting cliches.
AZK:
Plato often spoke about this, maybe you could just talk about that.
DERRIDA:
One of the first questions one could poseIm just searching a bitis the
question of the difference between the who and the what. Is love the love of

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someone or the love of some thing? Okay, supposing I loved someone. Do I

love someone for the absolute singularity of who they are? I love you
because you are you. Or do I love your qualities, your beauty, your
intelligence? Does one love someone, or does one love something about
someone? The difference between the who and the what at the heart of love,
separates the heart. It is often said that love is the movement of the heart.
Does my heart move because I love someone who is an absolute singularity,
or because I love the way that someone is? Often love starts with some type
of seduction. One is attracted because the other is like this or that. Inversely,
love is disappointed and dies when one comes to realize the other person
doesnt merit our love. The other person isnt like this or that. So at the
death of love, it appears that one stops loving another not because of who
they are, but because they are such and such. That is to say, the history of
love, the heart of love, is divided between the who and the what. The
question of Being, to return to philosophy because the first question of
philosophy is: What is it to Be? What is Being? The question of being is
itself always already divided between the who and what. Is Being someone
or some thing? I speak of it abstractly, but I think that whoever starts to
love, is in love, or stops loving, is caught between this division of the who
and the what. One wants to be true to someone singularly, irreplaceably
and one perceives that this someone isnt x or y. They didnt have the
qualities, properties, the images, that I thought Id loved. So fidelity is
threatened by this difference between the who and the what.
BURNING CRIB (Paris Home)
DERRIDA:
What did you think of my
AZK:
What did I think of your family? Very nice, very warm.
DERRIDA:
You thought they were nice?
AZK:
Yes. Different from you.
DERRIDA:
Yes, very different, and different from each other also. I love my sister very
much. She is very sweet. Her husband also.
AZK:
They were very kind and warm
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My sister is someone with whom I never, throughout my entire life, fought

over anything. There was never between my sister and me the least
littleAbsolute peace.
AZK:
Except for when you tried to set her on fire in her crib?
DERRIDA (laughing):
Thats the first and last time!... You remember that?....
RENE & CHANTAL MAJOR -- KIDNEY STONES
DERRIDA:
The people who watch these images will think Hes a fanatic of chips. He
drinks champagne in a magnificent home every day.
MARGUERITE:
If youd like something, help yourself.
RENE:
To everyones good health
DERRIDA:
We were in the middle of comparing our two surgical operations.
RENE:
You must understand, this is our way of getting him to talk about his body,
DERRIDA:
Ive written a lot about my mothers kidney stone. My mother, at 47, had
been feeling sick, so they took an x-ray. And by chance they found a whole
set of kidney stones. And so they operated to remove them, but found they
couldnt remove them because one stone was son enormous that they were
obliged to remove her whole kidney. So my mother lived with just one kidney
from age 47 to 90. And she always kept in her house this spectacular stone.
CEMETARY (Nice, France)
CIRCUMFESSION 1992
V/O:
And I am writing here at the moment when my mother no longer recognizes
me, and at which, though still capable of speaking or articulating, a little, she
no longer calls me and for her and therefore for the rest of her life, I no
longer have a name, thats whats happening, and when she nonetheless
seems to reply to me, she is presumably replying to someone who happens
to be me without her knowing it, if knowing means anything here, like the
other day in Nice when I asked her if she was in pain (yes) then where? It

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was February 5 1989, she had in a rhetoric that could never have been hers,
the audacity of this stroke about which she will alas, never know anything,
no doubt knew nothing, and which, piercing the night replies to my question:
I have a pain in my mother, as though she were speaking for me, both in
my direction and in my place.
I stop for a moment over a pang of remorse, in any case over the admission
I owe the reader, in truth that I owe my mother herself for the reader will
have understood that I am writing for my mother, perhaps even for a dead
woman, for if I were here writing for my mother, it would be for a living
mother who does not recognize her son, and I am paraphrasing here for
whomever no longer recognizes me, unless it be so that one should no longer
recognize me, another way of saying, another version, so that people think
they finally recognize me
RADIO/EGGPLANT (Kitchen, Ris-Orangis)
Derrida prepares lunch for himself while listening to news on the radio.
RADIO:
The military chief of the Hezbollah, the pro-Iranian movement, was killed this
morning in South Lebanon by an attack from an Israeli helicopter which
destroyed the car of the Hezbollah chief. Israel then launched an operation
targeting many positions of the Hezbollah in South Lebanon. In Rwanda, the
refugees are continuing their exodus. There are now 45,000 who are walking
towards Tanzania.
ANTI-SEMITISM (Laguna Interview)
DERRIDA:
The racism that I suffered from the most was the anti-Semitism that was
permanent in Algeria, and was even more greatly unleashed before the war.
In 1940, when I was ten, anti-Semitism became the official doctrine of the
French government. They expelled form school all the Jewish children, all the
Jewish professors, and all the Jewish administrators, with just a few
exceptions. So when I was ten, I was thrown out of school, as Ive often
recounted. My brother and sister as well. No one told us why. One day the
principal just said, Go home and your parents will explain. But what was
most painful wasnt simply the administrative decision to expel us from
school. It was in the streets, the insults, the children calling us dirty Jews.
The violence that was expressed. That was our daily experience. The
persecution, kids toward other kids. It wasnt the adults. It was my
classmates as they left school who picked and insulted the dirty Jews.
Sometimes they beat us. This very rich and painful experience naturally
made me very sensitive to racism and anti-Semitism. I exercise an extreme
vigilance against all acts of anti-Semitism, even when they are disguised or
presented covertly. But the paradox of this situation, is that at the moment
when I was expelled from school and the French Christian community, I

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wasnt happy to be enclosed in the Jewish community either. There was a

Jewish school that my parents had enrolled me in. With all the Jewish
professors that had been fired, it was easy to reconstitute a really good
school. I didnt like this school either. I was ill at ease. So there was at the
same time a part of me that rejected solidarity with the Jewish community.
These were the years that very much counted for me. I was very marked by
this double experience of suffering both from anti-Semitism and my own
discomfort in the Jewish community.
MANDELA PRISON
Robben Island South Africa. Derrida goes to see President Mandelas
prison cell.
WARDEN:
This is cell where President Mandela spent 18 years.
DERRIDA:
How much?
WARDEN:
18 years. You will notice that in this cell there is no water facility or toilets.
ARCHIVE FEVER 1995
V/O:
As soon as there is the one, there is murder. Wounding, traumatism. The
one guards against the other, it protects itself from the other. But in the
movement of this jealous violence it compromises in itself its self-otherness
or self difference. The difference from within ones self, which makes it one.
The one as the other. At one and the same time, but in the same time that is
out of joint. The one forgets to remember itself to its self. It keeps and
erases the archive of this injustice that it is, of this violence that it does. The
one makes itself violence, it violates and does violence to itself. It becomes
what it is, the very violence that it does to itself. The determination of the
self as one is violence.
SOUTH AFRICA / FORGIVENESS (Capetown University)
PLACARD:
In August 1998. Derrida was invited to speak at several South African
universities. He choose to address the topic of forgiveness.
DERRIDA:
More than once we will be faced with the effects of a preliminary question
which is the question: who or what? Does one forgive someone for a wrong
committed or does one forgive someone something? Someone who, in
whatever way, can never totally be confused with the wrong doing and the

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moment of the past wrong doing nor with the past injury. So, the question is,
who or what? Do we forgive someone or do we forgive someone something?
MODERATOR:
Ok, a final, final question. There is a very anxious question
STUDENT:
So youre a white Western male, speaking to a white audience. We are part
of the previous oppressive community in South Africa. And you are speaking
to us about unconditional forgivenessNow you might have meant that pure
forgiveness thing with a lot of irony, and maybe that is something that is
really impossible -- pure forgiveness being really impossible, but we sit here
as potential objects of forgiveness and we are, all of us, you included, in a
sense guilty. Nowdont you think it fills an ideological function speaking to
us, telling us in a sense we should not repent, not ask for forgiveness,
because then we ruin pure, unconditional forgiveness, while at the same
time you are telling oppressed people they should forgive without expecting
repentance.
DERRIDA:
First of all, I take irony seriously; I take the problem of irony very seriously.
And we need some irony that is something which challenges the common
sensical concepts, and you cant do this without some irony. So there was no
doubt some irony. Now of course in this context I understand your concern
and I share your concern. I want to precisely draw a very rigorous border
between the pure concept of forgiveness and the idea of reconciliation and
the idea of excuse and the process which is going on. I think that as soon as
you mix the concept of forgiveness with all the connected concepts which are
at work in this current process, reconciliation, repentance, so on and so
forth, then you first obscurely Christianize the process, you introduce
confusion and obscurity in something which has to be as clear as possible.
OUTSIDE INTERVIEW (Laguna)
DERRIDA:
This gesture that I make when I talk of pure forgiveness, is a different
gesture. I try to explain that any type of pure forgiveness is impossible. And
that one can truly forgive only that which is unforgivable. If one forgives
what is easily forgiven, one doesnt really forgive. One must forgive what is
unforgivable, and so do the impossible. I also try and distinguish between
reconciliation and forgiveness. A forgiveness that is demanded or accorded in
order to achieve some type of reconciliation is not forgiveness. If I forgive
solely to change a situation or to heal a wound, or if I forgive with a
therapeutic intention or a psychoanalytic or ecological purpose or so that
someones health returns, or peace is restored, then to me, that is not pure
forgiveness. Thats a calculation. Now I might think its a good calculation,
one that must be made, but I wouldnt consider it pure forgiveness. I would
regard it as something that is part of the process, a process of mourning, or

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reconciliation which is sometimes therapeutic, or politically necessary. And I

approve of all these processes of reconciliation that are attempted in many
parts of the world today. But since I am a philosopher who tries to be
rigorous with whats said and tries to understand the meaning of words and
evaluate their sense and implication, I refrain from calling these situations
examples of pure forgiveness.
SEINFELD
ABC NEWSCASTER:
If I give you an example that I have often thought to myself that Seinfeld
which is Americas most popular ever sitcom, Seinfeld, do you know the
Seinfeld sitcom in America? If you think of a classic American, Jerry Seinfeld
made this sitcom about a group of people living together, everything is about
irony and parody and what you do with your kitchen cupboard is imbued with
as much feeling or thought as whether someone believes in God, if you like,
do you see anything in that?
DERRIDA:
Deconstruction the way I understand it doesnt produce any sitcom, and if a
sitcom is this and this, and the people who watch this and think that
Deconstruction is this, the only advice I have to give them just is to read,
stop watching sitcoms, and try and do your own homework and read.
WATCHING TV
UNPUBLISHED INTERVIEW 1982
V/O:
Its not easy to improvise, its the most difficult thing to do. Even when one
improvises in front of a camera or microphone, one ventriloquizes or leaves
another to speak in ones place the schemas and languages that are already
there. There are already a great number of prescriptions that are prescribed
in our memory and in our culture. All the names are already preprogrammed.
Its already the names that inhibit our ability to ever really improvise. One
cant say what ever one wants, one is obliged more or less to reproduce the
stereotypical discourse. And so I believe in improvisation and I fight for
improvisation. But always with the belief that its impossible. And there
where there is improvisation I am not able to see myself. I am blind to
myself. And its what I will see, no, I wont see it. Its for others to see. The
one who is improvised here, no I wont ever see him.
IMPROV 3 -- ECHO AND NARCISSUS
DERRIDA:
Ill try now to answer your question about the story of Echo and Narcissus. If
one focuses on the treatment of the image and not on the love story in the

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myth of Echo and Narcissus one sees the myth as about the relationship
between specular image and voice between sight and voice between light and
speech, between the reflection and the mirror. Speech is whats taking place
here right now. Theres a mirror. Im speaking. Theres a camera. You pose a
question, I repeat it. So Im acting as both Narcissus and Echo at one and
the same time. And whats extraordinary in this scene, which Ive examined
in my seminars, is the moment when Echo traps Narcissus in a certain way.
Echo, cursed by the jealous gods, was never allowed to speak for herself, and
was only allowed to repeat the ends of others phrases. But Echo, in her
loving and infinite cleverness, arranges it so that in repeating the last
syllables of the words of Narcissus, she speaks in such a way that her words
become her own. In a certain way, she appropriates his language. In
repeating the language of another, she signs her own love. In repeating she
responds to him. In repeating, she communicates with him. She speaks in
her own name by just repeating his words. And as always with speech, one is
blind. To speak is to not see. So all speech to some extent is blind. And at
base, Echo blindly but quite lucidly corresponds to Narcissus. Its a story of
love, after all. She corresponds to Narcissus who is also blind, because
Narcissus realizes that he can only see himself, that its only his own image
he is seeing in the water. To see only oneself is a form of blindness. One sees
nothing else. And its because of this that Narcissus cries. He cries, and in a
way, he dies from not being able to see anyone else. Echo and Narcissus then
are two blind people who love each other. Now how do two blind people love
each other? Thats the question.
DID YOU READ ALL THESE? (Ris-Orangis)
AZK:
And whats this room?
DERRIDA:
Its the new addition. Ive only been working here a few months.
AZK:
Did you read these?
DERRIDA:
I never read these. There was a time I was teaching on vampirism, on
cannibalism, eating the Other. So I made a number of references to
vampires, and someone gave me these books. I dont even remember who
gave them to me. No, I havent read these. I havent read all the books that
are here.
AZK:
But youve read most of them?
DERRIDA:
No, No. Three of four. But I read those four really, really well.

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This was my son Pierres bedroom. These things there are for when Vera, our
granddaughter, comes to visit. She sleeps here.
AZK:
Thats nice.
DERRIDA:
Its now another office, but it used to be Pierres bedroom.
MOTHER AS PHILOSOPHER (Laguna)
KIRBY DICK:
If you had a choice what philosopher would you like to have been your
mother?
DERRIDA:
Thats his style, thats his own style? I have no ready answer for this, give
me some time. My mother? Good question, its a good question in fact. Ill try
to tell you why its impossible for me to have any philosopher as a mother. My
mother, my mother couldnt be a philosopher. A philosopher couldnt be my
mother. Thats a very important point. Because the figure of the philosopher
is, for me, always a masculine figure. This is one of the reasons I undertook
the deconstruction of philosophy. All the deconstruction of phallogocentrism
is the deconstruction of what one calls philosophy which since its inception,
has always been linked to a paternal figure. So, a philosopher is a Father, not
a Mother. So the philosopher that would be my mother would be a postdeconstructive philosopher, that is, myself or my son. My mother as a
philosopher would be my granddaughter, for example. An inheritor. A woman
philosopher who would reaffirm the deconstruction. And consequently, would
be a woman who thinks. Not a philosopher. I always distinguish thinking from
philosophy. A thinking mother its what I both love and try to give birth to.
PARISIAN STREETS
VIOLENCE AND METAPHYSICS 1964
V/O:
That philosophy died yesterday, since Hegel or Marx, Nietzche, or Heidegger
and that philosophy should still wander toward the meaning of its death
or that it has always lived knowing itself to be dying; that philosophy died
one day, within history, or that it has always fed on its own agony, on the
violent way it opens history by opposing itself to nonphilosophy, which is its
past and its concern, its death and wellspring; that beyond the death, or
dying nature of philosophy, perhaps even because of it, thought still has a
future, or even, as is said today, is still entirely to come because of what
philosophy has held in store; or more strangely still, that the future itself has
a future all these are unanswerable questions. By right of birth, and for one

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time at least, these are problems put to philosophy as problems philosophy

cannot resolve.
AVITAL RONELL, NYU PROFESSOR
Avital:
Long ago I had dinner and his mother when she was alive was there and one
of the great dictionaries in France had just come out and included differance
with an a and that had happened that day and at dinner I said that we
should have a party to celebrate the induction of difference with an a into
the dictionary, this was a monumental encyclopedic event that ought to be
marked and proper ceremony which I was very willing to arrange should take
place, and Jacques mother who was very ancient but noble, she said Jackie
did you spell difference with an A? And she was mortified but it was so
sweet, it was so fabulous and there was this moment where I also felt I had
blabbed because, you know, now whats he supposed to do, explain to his
mother? He doesnt -- hes very modest, he doesnt talk about himself to his
family, I mean his relatives family.
DERRIDAS BROTHER (Nice)
Rene Derrida:
Each time he gives us one of his books, or we attend one of his conferences
we ask ourselves, How does he do it? How must his mind work to be able
to come up with all these philosophical thoughts? Because we have brains as
well, and we cannot come up with such things. Why him? Why is he able to
come up with these philosophical thoughts and all these deductions and
deconstructions?
AZK:
Its extraordinary.
CAMERAWOMAN:
Its an enigma, isnt it?
Rene Derrida:
Yes, its a great enigma.
AZK:
You dont see any links in your family?
Rene Derrida:
Not at all, Not at all.
CAMERAWOMAN:
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Rene Derrida:
Out of nowhere.
AZK:
And what would your parents say?
Rene Derrida:
Well, my mother read a lot, but definitely not this sort of reading. We were
not an intellectual family. Not at all.
PERSON:
If you had to speculate where it came from?
Rene Derrida:
I would be incapable. Even if one searched past generations either on the
side of my father or mother one couldnt find a link to Jacques spirit.
ARCHIVE CEREMONY AT IRVINE
PLACARD:
On April 17, 1995 a ceremony was held to commemorate the creation of a
Derrida Archive in the United States at the University of California at Irvine.
Derrida:
You can imagine how strange it is, not just to have someone gather your
archive, but to attend the event of the inauguration of the archive. I realized
the other day and this afternoon by looking at the archive in the library, with
these gray, black and gray urns accumulated like, of course, in a graveyard
and already mourning we are always already mourning -- well, you know,
among the concerns we have about where we are going to be buried, the
question is -- with whom...?
EDDIE YEGHIAYAN, ARCHIVIST
Eddie:
This is the entire Derrida archive beginning there almost to the end, theres
about 100 boxes. He mentioned that his wife was kind of reluctant to see
these materials go, that it was a kind of foretelling of his imminent death or
something like that. And you know we then had the boxes still in our reading
room -- we were in a kind of different situation there -- and he treated it like
it was his little child and I remember the manuscript was pushed out and he
looked at it and touched the box, kind of sorry to see it go or be in another
domicile or whatever.

WATCHING BOOKS AND MARGUERITE

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Archive Fever 1995

V/O:
The question of the archive is not a question of the past. It is not the
question of a concept dealing with the past that might already be at our
disposal. An archivable concept of the archive. It is a question of the future,
the question of the future itself, the question of a response, of a promise,
and of a responsibility for tomorrow. The archive if we want to know what
that will have meant, we will only know in times to come; not tomorrow, but
in times to come. Later on, or perhaps never.
SEXUAL LIFE OF PHILOSOPHER
AZK:
If you were to watch a documentary about a philosopher Heidegger, Kant
or Hegel, what would you like to see in it?
Derrida:
Their sex lives. If you want a quick answer. I would like to hear them speak
about their sexual lives. I would like to hear them speak about it. What is the
sexual life of Hegel or Heidegger?
AZK:
Why?
Derrida:
You want a quick answer, you dont want justification. Because its something
they dont talk about. Id love to hear about something they refuse to talk
about. Why do philosophers present themselves asexually in their work? Why
have they erased their private lives from their work? Or never talked about
anything personal? There is nothing more important in their private life than
love. Im not talking about making a porno film about Hegel or Heidegger. I
want them to speak about the part that love plays in their lives. So you could
take a microphone up to HegelOne knows some things about Hegel or
Heidegger already. But not from things theyve said. Id like to hear them
speak on this.
AZK:
And do you think you would want people to ask you such a question?
Derrida:
Yes, I never said Id respond to such a question butin my texts there are
already many things that reference this. I disguise thingsbut I dont do so
in the same way as the other philosophers youve named. Ive dissimulated
of course, like everybody. But not in the same fashion. So to answer your
question, Id be very interested to hear other philosophers speak about this.
Thats not to say that I would tell you, even if you were to ask me. I speak

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when I want and when I canand eventually, in the presence of my

attorneysWhat are you going to do with all this? Weve been talking for
about two hours no, 25 years weve been doing this film and youre going
to edit this down to one hour. What are you going to keep? You will keep
exactly what you think has to be kept. That will be your signature and your
autobiography in a certain way.
STALKING IN LAGUNA
The Gift of Death 1992
V/O:
How can another see into me, into my most secret self, without my being
able to see in there myself? And without my being able to see him in me.
And if my secret self, that which can be revealed only to the other, to the
wholly other, to God if you wish, is a secret that I will never reflect on, that I
will never know or experience or possess as my own, then what sense is
there in saying that it is my secret, or in saying more generally that a
secret belongs, that it is proper to or belongs to some one, or to some
other who remains someone. Its perhaps there that we find the secret of
secrecy. Namely, that it is not a matter of knowing and that it is there for
no-one. A secret doesnt belong, it can never be said to be at home or in its
place. The question of the self: who am I not in the sense of who am I
but rather who is this I that can say who? What is the I and what
becomes of responsibility once the identity of the I trembles in secret?
REGRET?
AZK:
You asked me the other day if I regretted having undertaken this project and
I was wondering if that was a projection if youve regretted it?
Derrida:
No, so far no, perhaps one day I will regret this. So far, no.
AZK:
Have you ever been in psychoanalysis yourself?
Derrida:
No
AZK:
Would you ever consider it?
Derrida:
No. I absolutely exclude this.
AZK:

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Could you characterize any traumatic breaks in your own life?

Derrida:
There have been, yes.
AZK:
Thank you.
Derrida (laughing):
Again, no I wont be able to, uh, no, no.
DERRIDA AND CREW WALKING IN STREET (Paris)
DERRIDA SITS
Archive Fever 1995
V/O:
We will wonder what he may have kept of his unconditional right to secrecy,
while at the same time burning with the desire to know, to make known, and
to archive the very things he concealed forever. What did he conceal even
beyond the intention to conceal? Beyond the intention to lie or to perjure.
We will always wonder what, sharing with compassion in this archive fever,
what may have burned of his secret passions, of his correspondences, or of
his life. Burned without him, without remains and without knowledge.
Without the least symptom, and without even an ash.
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